February 1
Day 6.5: progress report
I’ve completed days 5 & 6 over the last two days, but today was a family get together which required an early start, so I didn’t fit it in today. That’s ok, I’m going to finish this trial soon enough!
So I tried the breathing technique with my two variations for Level 3 and actually managed to get completely stuck on the 2nd variation, but this I think had more to do with the fact that I was feeling very frazzled and off centre, so I was struggling to get my thoughts together. Still, that might not be a bad time to get some Shiva Nata help, so hopefully it’s doing it’s thing in the background.
Certainly over the course of Friday evening and today I managed to notice when I was having a freak out moment, see where I was getting my buttons pushed and stop myself from spiralling off, so I’m feeling good about myself (even though I did still have a freak out moment and get my buttons pushed!)
After the Shiva Nata for 10 minutes on Friday my brain was still a bit of a mess, but taking a full 20 minutes to relax, calm down and focus on just my breathing (I use one of Havi’s suggestions from the Starter Kit) I actually managed to turn it around, which was such a freaking awesome feeling! Oh yes, I am in charge of my mental space! Booya! hehehe
Well, ok, control isn’t maybe the right word, but being able to find that calm space inside me to then be able to go and write out a load of pages and get the mess out of my head and onto paper certainly beats getting dizzy with all the thoughts running through my head, which is what was happening beforehand.
Still think that Level 3 has been beat, but since I can use it to trip me up when I’m in a mess it acts as a good barometer for the moment, until I get better at noticing where I am at from day to day (and moment to moment). When Havi has rested from her little yoga retreat and I’ve got further in this trial I may try picking her brains for more info however.