Adventures of a Shivanaut

Boo-yah! I finally got all the way through the Level 3 arms without going horribly, inextricably wrong and having to start all over again.

I’m starting to see the path that Havi describes where you go from:

1. I’ve no idea what the heck is happening here; to
2. Oh, that seems kind familiar, I can kinda see some little structures here and there; to
3. Ahh, I think I’ve maybe got it – it’s either this, or this, or this, but yeah I can see patterns; to
4. Ah-ha!  I’ve got it.  La la la la la, this is so easy! (Well, ok, maybe not easy, but…hey, stop raining on my parade!)

I’m now on step 2.  Of Level 3.  Arms only.  *sigh*

Still, it’s about being in the process, so it’s ok that I want to get through it faster, so long as I keep going even though I’m going slo-o-o-o-o-o-owly!  (And yes, I’m aware that others may think I’m racing through, but to me it feels slow – cause that’s my stuff and I’m working through it!)

There is one thought at the back of mind, it’s a hope.  It’s hoping that before I get to Level 7 and feel like I have got to grips with that, I will have worked through my desire to ‘master’ the Dance of Shiva.  That I will have dissolved that pattern and be able to therefore continue my learning with the dance without getting despondent about not reaching the mythical Level 8.  Cause right now, you just know what I’m aiming for, right?

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